damian the sunken ship

well i'm a little more composed now. i still can't erase you off my mind. you're too dear to me. i shouldn't have said all the bad things.

sunday:
went for 11am mass. we were almost late thus we didnt get any palms. saw this selfish lady taking 8 palms as though she needs it for her roof. had lunch with al and gabriel at mengs. went off for council meeting. open the eyes of my heart lord , thats a great song man. haha. i had a good time doing p&w. oh yes. meeting ended late so no soccer prac. went home and ran 4km. the night was terrible. one of my worst nights ever. i feel so emo? but i don't wanna be emo? because it the most disgusting character one can have? i kept having thoughts of wanting someone to rob me and shoot me in the head. thats damn emo. it just didnt feel good. i hope god finds a way for me. :S

monday:
wokeup with bloodshot eyes. didn't wanna go to school but since its crucial period for me. i got to. felt like shit the entire morning. was bloody quiet and sleepy. i dozed off during english dnt lessons. thanks to emmnauel for understanding how i felt and giving your usual quirky comments which totally cracked me up. HAHA. thanks to the amath drop outs for comforting me. it was half stupid and hilarious. thanks to daryl for listening my problems during recess. and thanks to adam for talking to me on the way home. never felt so gay before. bought cheap socks. got home and stoned.

even though its a big blow i still dont hate you. i felt so stupid saying all those hurtful comments last night. i love you so much that i cant hate you. i dont wanna lose you. i can't do without you and at least your friendship.