finally

oh my my. its been a week since i last blogged. last week was just dnt-ing dnt-ing dnt-ing , nothing much to do. eat and dnt sleep and dnt shit and dnt. fuck dnt. mon-thurs was normal mundane school life just that on wednesday i had my best dinner ever. nasi briyani near church! kicks ass man! the rice the chicken. ahh everything! fattening but good. its like one of those days when i fuck care the calories and devour the briyani. friday was spent studying with cindy at cartel. effective as i studied but not effective because we werent served free bread. their service sucked badd. i had a goood lunch on saturday , XO fish been hoon at queensway. fuck man the slice of fish is like huge , they are fucking generous not like the normal 5mm thick slice of fish. after lunch , study at ice kimmo with mum and majella. mum left and we distress by playing reversi and checkers. and i got OWNED. fuck la i'm not a board games person. then we went to church to help out for some rciy thingo. got zee to help me with my dnt drawing. yes yes art attack art attack! but my teacher found out in the end. haha. had a very bad night as chelsea betrayed me and gave me false hope. HAHA. sunday was dull. studied in church after dim sum lunch then i stupidly went for soccer training with street soccer boots. the field was like brown. anyone who wore white tees had their backs all blacks and front all white. haha. training sucked bad.

and today is english mid years. the bad thing was that most of the comp questions were appealing. describing an unusual place? i thought i could bluff my way out but i couldnt. write about a personal recount when you got betrayed. if its not personal , i would have written prison break! what do you look for in your future spouse? i got 1 trillion things to say but it might sound i'm bitching. so i chose PLAY. HAHA. paper 2 was manageable. the weather was so fucking hot in the afternoon! we ended at like 245? because we had 2 hrs of chem. fuck it. so i rushed home , changed and cycled to the swimming complex! 30 laps and a nice brown brown skin statisfied me. got home had bacon-ish dinner. and 200pounds beauty with cindy! okay and alessa. HAHA. its hilarious shit i tell you. korean commedies. a must watch for those who is trouble with daily work. HAHA fucking funny shit. okay soccer at kallange cage tomorrow.

bye world.

i dont know , after one week its like back to square one. nothing to say to each other. what the fuck. fuck why cant you just reply when i wanted you to and just shut up when i wanted you to.

bloggers a bitch

last night i was blogging about friday saturday and sunday and blogger deleted that post as i got disconnected. so this is gonna be in short. blame blogger not me.

the whole weekend was spent doing the dnt folio. friday was okay. school was stoned. the 10 of us decided not to go for speech day and die together like spartans. gymmed after school and the night was spent with my folio. saturday , ikea-ing with mum for ideas. great food. i wish i'm a swede , wake up to meatballs and meatballs and more meatballs everyday. faith formation bbq and liquid with ambrose at night. sunday match against st ignatius at sji which sucked so bad luckily match was abandoned due to the rain. went home and spent time with my folio again. and who the hecks bathes in chocolate orange flavoured soap?! everyone will want a bite outta you.

and i'm glad things are back to normal. (: no more shits. :D

oh my mama

okay its been awhile since i last blogged. schools been a bitch. dnt is really bitching. damn folio and damn the detailed development. i asked mr lin what else to inclue. he said more detailed work on your product so that you can start to develop it. -.- its a good as saying detailed development.

monday
i rememberd it was cinnamon eclipse day. kept eating that damn sweet even though it had this funny taste. kept me awake. went to study with rachel after school.

tuesday
had a long day in school because of dnt enrichment. thank god its the last day. dnt-ing the whole day. went to meet rachel for a little while after school.

wednesday
pe was terrible. worst soccer match ever. stupid darn new street soccer shoes just wont work for me. gymmed with nicholas lu after school. had dinner with rachel jo and al. we didnt had enough money to pay for our dinner so al did some embazzlement. tsktsk. and she said she has been doing it since pri school. can imagine what will happen in the future. devious schemes. got hooked onto wall's solero exotic , had like 1 and a half cones because jo cant finish hers.

thursday
school was very very tiring and it was a fucking hot day. the amath drop outs went up to the 3rd level to sleep during amath lesson. each took one bench to lie on. derek said that while we were sleeping the new teachers walked past us. haha imagine seeing the way we slept. legs on the table , people snoring , people drooling , people sleep talking. damn slack. got home. major dnt-ing. prison break and tau huay!

holy cow i want my weekend! how am i suppose to start the conversation with you again.

stubbed

thursday
school was good. weekly chinese mock was difficult shitass. can't really remember what i did for the rest of the day. went home after school i think to study. then night was half study half play. and prison break.

friday
school.gym after school. best thosai in town with mum. parent info evening. which was terribly boring. i was cracking jokes about the teachers in school and mum was laughing. she was so bored. she went to cut her nails. okay finger nails. before you imagine her biting off her toe nails.

sat
cip in the morning. went all the way to spca to collect the tins. rammed my way through the cedar girls queue to get my tin. haha. fuck em. went with the dota boys to kovan. holy cow i survived lan with them. its soo freaking boring i wonder how they do it daily. retarded shit ass. lunch was mee hoon kuay. i swear i'm on a solo mission to find the best mee hoon kuay in town. some spell mee as mi. -.- half life was funny shit. "eh where you get that bug weapon?" "aiyah go mama shop find la." "eh i got the vacuum cleaner gun. fuck your father now!" "eh we're pals. dont kill each other ah. -kills- you're father is gonna be dead when you get home." went to return the tins and it rained like fuck. there was st gabriel's brotherhood bonding at the bus stop as we went to take shelter. everyone tried squeezing in. those weaker ones got kicked out of the bus stop and they had to wait in the rain. what brotherhood. but when a stupid car drove by and splashed water onto us. we cursed in unison. went home. went out for dinner with classmates. makansutra delicious food. patio time. cam whore. sahara. thomson. home.

sunday
mass in the morning. went to hooked on heads with mum. good chicken green curry and fish head curry. the weather was perfect in the morning and in the afternoon. went to the cc to study while waiting for training to start. i went to change at 2.25. while changing my pants i heard some rain sound from outside. i was praying its someone at the back frying an egg. when i came at at 230 (training time) , it was raining like theres no tomorrow. was pissed. so i emoed at a corner of the stairs reading sidney sheldon. rained stopped. went to kick around and we had a prayer. we prayed for good weather and before we could start with warm ups. it rained. someone must have slept during the prayer. when the rain finally lightened up. we went for training. the field was flooded like fuck. i bet those insects were swimming thinking that they're in wild wild wet. training was just wet muddy and wet and muddy. slacked with the coaches after training. mann keeper's sis is real fine. and keeper is pri6. -.- went home. dinner. last samurai. chelsea vs blackburn at 1035! fa cup semis! okay next week onwards. its no shit time already. major mugging time. damian is gonna mug like mad.

running out of breath

tuesday
schools was fine. i was a few mintues late for chemisty lesson and the amath dropouts got sent out of class. -.- actually we were doing our work outside the class because there was amath lesson before that. then we were bitching about some theorem till we were late. -.- went to the gym after school. got home and installed the new addictive shit. football manager 07. gosh. what bad timing to get it. haha.

wednesday
2.4 was good. clocked in my personal best. dnt was alittle enriching for me though i was damn sleepy. showered with adam during recess (nothing naughty about it) we were pouring water over each other (still nothing naughty) . did some dips after school before heading home. was too tired out from 2.4. met rachel and joanne for dinner before heading home to catch chelsea vs valencia reply. ooo yeah. 2-1

i can't stop thinking about you. i'm soo foolish.

monday sucks

its the fucking start of the week. its a monday and it smells bad. fucking monday blues. give me my weekend back. today was a very sleepy day. slept during ve. they were talking about pornography and trust me it couldnt make stay up awake. rest of the day was just stonned. physics was interesting though. got home. studied and found myself on the com after dinner. that freaking website has the prison break episodes so i skipped all the way to season 2 last episode. and its still loading what the heck.
its tuesday tomorrow and its a school day and it gotta suck bad.

i pray hard

hopefully when dust has settled and everything is fine. and theres no more complications between you and i. we can look back and say that its all a bad dream. sigh. i hate this feeling of being guilty. i'm just so foolish. someone call the cops.

thankfully i had my weekend skanks during the long weekend. a mix of people and you'll never know what you get. like a packet of skittles.

easter eggs?

happy easter to everyone!

saturday
spent my entire morning reading the newspaper and newsweek. met the classmates in the afternoon for awhile. i didnt wanna spend money eating lunch so i cooked some mee goreang before leaving the house. guess what we stoned at suki sushi for 2hrs and i had free sushi because i told em i wasnt eating. well you see sushi moving all around you theres the temptation to eat it. so yes temptation got the better of me. i took one sushi. then i moved to 20 sushi? shit shouldnt have cooked mee goreang. got home. had dinner then left to meet the boys. went for the easter vigil. after that. again a mix of people at eski was fun shit. ice games poker on the bus watching chelsea win nice place to chill and the place was chilly. left eski and went to meet the girls after their play.yet again mix of people at sahara was fun. indian populated area cards sofa pillows camwhoring and man u lost.

sunday
went for easter mass. this stupid indian bitch thought theres space on the bench we were sitting so she happily squeezed her way through and seperate me from mum and the rest making it look like i'm alone. fucking hair ape , she needs some animal care. went to meet joel and rachel to study at bishan lib after mass. had subway eat fresh! damn the service was slow if there was a system that i could get free sandwhiches if my order took more than 2mins to come , i would have gotta 3 sandwhiches free. studied studied studied. got home changed and went downstairs to run. and i'm alone at home now.

again i didnt think about you. but last night the conversation with you was just trashy. just give me tell alright. i just need to sort things out.

boy oh boy

thursday
school was stoned. was just looking forward to my thursday night. we postponed dnt enrichment because the dude that was suppose to teach us just died. shit that stinks. went to cut my hair in the end. night was good! a mixture of different people , old friends on the side and best friends as icing on the cake. me alessa abel grace adam andrew brandon ambrose and barker boys kevin teo cindy mabel. everything just went well though there was signs of being loppy.

friday
good friday! a day of fasting. so i fasted on some stuff like studying. went for the 3pm mass and it was packed and it was like sitting in the theatre watching lord of the rings. damn it was long. had alot of kneeling and standing. went for some prata with ambrose. got home and thats about it.

it took things off my mind for awhile but its back again. give me something to numb it off.

thumbs up

i had my ups and downs today. haha thankfully it ended UP. 5 stations in the morning. it was slack. all a's except jump. sheesh. we didnt break a sweat so we decided to give up recess for soccer. we wanted to play with 4e1 since theres no ball to borrow. took us 5mins to talk to 4e1 to let us play and 10mins to ask the basketballers to fuck off. as i was about to move up with the ball. i heard this "GENERALLMAN GENERALLMAN NO PRAYING OF BARL HEARE" its the fucking short tongue dm. fucking spoiler. i couldnt make out what the fuck he was saying. we sec5s were pissed. we took more time in convincing people than playing soccer. what the fuck. the dm got a load of trashy words to hear when we walked off. "your tongue is 5mm!" "you can't do tongue twisters!" rest of the day was slack. ms radha thought cheated for my compo on my idol. which was jose mourhino. HAHA. i felt damn lethargic after school. totally dragged my feet to the gym. couldnt do much because the couch kept calling me to sit and sleep. oh design and tech lesson was a waste of time. HAHA. we were talking about our time in china and i was giving fake china accent which cracked everyone up and myself too. its quite pitiful if you're a seahorse and you're found in a china parsar malam stall because from live seahorse you're gonna be a dead fried bitch. i could still recall how they ended this poor seahorse live. i guess its name was john or tom , he was just swimming around in this little fish tank. though small its better than being in the frying pan. this china heartless bastard caught it by its head and it couldnt do a shit. once its caught its fucked. he is throw in the frying pan and wah la you get fried seahorse. one swift motion and the seahorse gets fucked bad. after frying is not good enough. so bitch just gotta eat that crunchy shit. lifes a bitch if i'm that seahorse.
had dinner with judith! good company nice talk good time laughing. ha ha ha ha. okay 4hrs to chelsea vs valencia. i predict a chelsea win since its at stamford bridge. oh yeah.

the smell will always stay

nothing interesting happened in school today. everything looked so dull. joe said i dont look cheerful for the past 2days. hahh. school past slowly like a slow painful death. it was pathetic. the food tasted like crap. the company had no fun in it. went to the gym after school. i had 0% mood to lift any shits no wonder i had this feeling i didnt achieve anything. got home. had a hearty meal.

"if only" kept appearing in my mind. if only everything went well. if only i didnt say anything. if only we were so close to start with. if only you didnt know much about me. IF ONLY. but what the fuck. everything has happened and it stinks real bad. i feel stupid. constant rejections smacked right in front of me sucks , i can't take it. i lacked the courage to do anything already. why why why. god give me a sign. if only.

i hope i'll do well for napfa. ha ha ha ha ha.

future potential

okay you people must be thinking WHO THE FUCK IS THIS JOKER?! what kind of blue/white team is he from?! he looks like a jackass! and you people will be thinking whether it is ronaldo or some other big star.

but its matt derbyshire. damn hes some good young england star who should not be playing in the u-21 team. hahh

damian the sunken ship

well i'm a little more composed now. i still can't erase you off my mind. you're too dear to me. i shouldn't have said all the bad things.

sunday:
went for 11am mass. we were almost late thus we didnt get any palms. saw this selfish lady taking 8 palms as though she needs it for her roof. had lunch with al and gabriel at mengs. went off for council meeting. open the eyes of my heart lord , thats a great song man. haha. i had a good time doing p&w. oh yes. meeting ended late so no soccer prac. went home and ran 4km. the night was terrible. one of my worst nights ever. i feel so emo? but i don't wanna be emo? because it the most disgusting character one can have? i kept having thoughts of wanting someone to rob me and shoot me in the head. thats damn emo. it just didnt feel good. i hope god finds a way for me. :S

monday:
wokeup with bloodshot eyes. didn't wanna go to school but since its crucial period for me. i got to. felt like shit the entire morning. was bloody quiet and sleepy. i dozed off during english dnt lessons. thanks to emmnauel for understanding how i felt and giving your usual quirky comments which totally cracked me up. HAHA. thanks to the amath drop outs for comforting me. it was half stupid and hilarious. thanks to daryl for listening my problems during recess. and thanks to adam for talking to me on the way home. never felt so gay before. bought cheap socks. got home and stoned.

even though its a big blow i still dont hate you. i felt so stupid saying all those hurtful comments last night. i love you so much that i cant hate you. i dont wanna lose you. i can't do without you and at least your friendship.

it never feels good

oh the truth hurts bad. i guess i'll never ever get up from this big blow. never. i'm sorry but i'll never ever forgive you. period.

because in your damn eyes. i'm just some jerk who will never ever change.

you'll never ever know how i felt. never. sorry but everything has to go.