running out of breath

tuesday
schools was fine. i was a few mintues late for chemisty lesson and the amath dropouts got sent out of class. -.- actually we were doing our work outside the class because there was amath lesson before that. then we were bitching about some theorem till we were late. -.- went to the gym after school. got home and installed the new addictive shit. football manager 07. gosh. what bad timing to get it. haha.

wednesday
2.4 was good. clocked in my personal best. dnt was alittle enriching for me though i was damn sleepy. showered with adam during recess (nothing naughty about it) we were pouring water over each other (still nothing naughty) . did some dips after school before heading home. was too tired out from 2.4. met rachel and joanne for dinner before heading home to catch chelsea vs valencia reply. ooo yeah. 2-1

i can't stop thinking about you. i'm soo foolish.

monday sucks

its the fucking start of the week. its a monday and it smells bad. fucking monday blues. give me my weekend back. today was a very sleepy day. slept during ve. they were talking about pornography and trust me it couldnt make stay up awake. rest of the day was just stonned. physics was interesting though. got home. studied and found myself on the com after dinner. that freaking website has the prison break episodes so i skipped all the way to season 2 last episode. and its still loading what the heck.
its tuesday tomorrow and its a school day and it gotta suck bad.

i pray hard

hopefully when dust has settled and everything is fine. and theres no more complications between you and i. we can look back and say that its all a bad dream. sigh. i hate this feeling of being guilty. i'm just so foolish. someone call the cops.

thankfully i had my weekend skanks during the long weekend. a mix of people and you'll never know what you get. like a packet of skittles.

easter eggs?

happy easter to everyone!

saturday
spent my entire morning reading the newspaper and newsweek. met the classmates in the afternoon for awhile. i didnt wanna spend money eating lunch so i cooked some mee goreang before leaving the house. guess what we stoned at suki sushi for 2hrs and i had free sushi because i told em i wasnt eating. well you see sushi moving all around you theres the temptation to eat it. so yes temptation got the better of me. i took one sushi. then i moved to 20 sushi? shit shouldnt have cooked mee goreang. got home. had dinner then left to meet the boys. went for the easter vigil. after that. again a mix of people at eski was fun shit. ice games poker on the bus watching chelsea win nice place to chill and the place was chilly. left eski and went to meet the girls after their play.yet again mix of people at sahara was fun. indian populated area cards sofa pillows camwhoring and man u lost.

sunday
went for easter mass. this stupid indian bitch thought theres space on the bench we were sitting so she happily squeezed her way through and seperate me from mum and the rest making it look like i'm alone. fucking hair ape , she needs some animal care. went to meet joel and rachel to study at bishan lib after mass. had subway eat fresh! damn the service was slow if there was a system that i could get free sandwhiches if my order took more than 2mins to come , i would have gotta 3 sandwhiches free. studied studied studied. got home changed and went downstairs to run. and i'm alone at home now.

again i didnt think about you. but last night the conversation with you was just trashy. just give me tell alright. i just need to sort things out.

boy oh boy

thursday
school was stoned. was just looking forward to my thursday night. we postponed dnt enrichment because the dude that was suppose to teach us just died. shit that stinks. went to cut my hair in the end. night was good! a mixture of different people , old friends on the side and best friends as icing on the cake. me alessa abel grace adam andrew brandon ambrose and barker boys kevin teo cindy mabel. everything just went well though there was signs of being loppy.

friday
good friday! a day of fasting. so i fasted on some stuff like studying. went for the 3pm mass and it was packed and it was like sitting in the theatre watching lord of the rings. damn it was long. had alot of kneeling and standing. went for some prata with ambrose. got home and thats about it.

it took things off my mind for awhile but its back again. give me something to numb it off.

thumbs up

i had my ups and downs today. haha thankfully it ended UP. 5 stations in the morning. it was slack. all a's except jump. sheesh. we didnt break a sweat so we decided to give up recess for soccer. we wanted to play with 4e1 since theres no ball to borrow. took us 5mins to talk to 4e1 to let us play and 10mins to ask the basketballers to fuck off. as i was about to move up with the ball. i heard this "GENERALLMAN GENERALLMAN NO PRAYING OF BARL HEARE" its the fucking short tongue dm. fucking spoiler. i couldnt make out what the fuck he was saying. we sec5s were pissed. we took more time in convincing people than playing soccer. what the fuck. the dm got a load of trashy words to hear when we walked off. "your tongue is 5mm!" "you can't do tongue twisters!" rest of the day was slack. ms radha thought cheated for my compo on my idol. which was jose mourhino. HAHA. i felt damn lethargic after school. totally dragged my feet to the gym. couldnt do much because the couch kept calling me to sit and sleep. oh design and tech lesson was a waste of time. HAHA. we were talking about our time in china and i was giving fake china accent which cracked everyone up and myself too. its quite pitiful if you're a seahorse and you're found in a china parsar malam stall because from live seahorse you're gonna be a dead fried bitch. i could still recall how they ended this poor seahorse live. i guess its name was john or tom , he was just swimming around in this little fish tank. though small its better than being in the frying pan. this china heartless bastard caught it by its head and it couldnt do a shit. once its caught its fucked. he is throw in the frying pan and wah la you get fried seahorse. one swift motion and the seahorse gets fucked bad. after frying is not good enough. so bitch just gotta eat that crunchy shit. lifes a bitch if i'm that seahorse.
had dinner with judith! good company nice talk good time laughing. ha ha ha ha. okay 4hrs to chelsea vs valencia. i predict a chelsea win since its at stamford bridge. oh yeah.

the smell will always stay

nothing interesting happened in school today. everything looked so dull. joe said i dont look cheerful for the past 2days. hahh. school past slowly like a slow painful death. it was pathetic. the food tasted like crap. the company had no fun in it. went to the gym after school. i had 0% mood to lift any shits no wonder i had this feeling i didnt achieve anything. got home. had a hearty meal.

"if only" kept appearing in my mind. if only everything went well. if only i didnt say anything. if only we were so close to start with. if only you didnt know much about me. IF ONLY. but what the fuck. everything has happened and it stinks real bad. i feel stupid. constant rejections smacked right in front of me sucks , i can't take it. i lacked the courage to do anything already. why why why. god give me a sign. if only.

i hope i'll do well for napfa. ha ha ha ha ha.